So yeah...

I'm going to go ahead and apologize for this post, its not going to be my usual entertainment based post. This one is more of a my thoughts self diary type entry. So yeah, sorry.

I've learned a bit today. I've always been a rational thinker, using logic instead of emotions. Recently my emotions have been coming out with all this relationship stuff, I've been wildly assuming things, such as oh im having a drink tonight and turning that into im going out and partying every night. I've been freaking out constantly and lashing out and doing the "How dare you dump me" thing and trying to rationalize it and be like "Theres no need to break up you can do this and this and this while were together theres no need". I guess im inept when it comes to emotions. I never really use them. It's kind of funny how much control i lack, i cant even function properly. Being the "manly man" i am and instantly being turned into a crying baby is kinda eye opening. I guess theres not much i can do, and i just have to let life run its course. I guess that really cliche quote comes in handy here; the one about if you love something let it go and if its meant to be itll come back to you. So yeah hard life lessons suck. In other news i went and took the tour at the school im going to and met with financial aid, all ive got left to do is apply for loans and officially enroll.  I'm going to try to have omething more interesting tomorrow. I promise ill think of something.